I don't want this. I hate this life. I'm alone. I'm hopeless. I hate. I miss love. I miss caring. I miss holding someone. I miss being held. I miss friends. I miss going out. I miss having fun. I hate the depression. I hate the insanity. I hate the need. I wanna sleep for a long time. I want to cry. I can't take it. I'm dying. My life is spiraling more and more every day. Drifting. Fading. Lost with no cause. I miss pain. I miss feeling. I can't feel a thing. I miss and that's all. I just want to sleep forever. Dream forever. Never see reality ever again.